Ego

The world is so full of ego. We hear ego, we talk about ego, we see ego, we experience ego, sometimes, we even bring ego to this world through us.
Well, im feeling the ego in myself frequently.
But im glad because im now able to recognize them n slowly becomimg aware of my thought instead of letting my thought to take control of me.
Sometimes, I even get shocked at myself. I saw 2 little girl on my way home this afternoon, then I saw this 2 cute and pretty 4-5-years-old girl, peeking out of one very outstanding BMW on the road.the 2 little girl is so innocent, cute and sweet, I guess. Kids like that always make me jealous,especially little girl. Looking at them remind me of what I used to have and what I don’t have anymore and what I have to go through when some other don’t.*well, just to remind, to think that BMW car as an outstanding one is already an EGO.when you look at something as superior, the same time u’re looking for to do comparison, and comparison is what ego loves.when there are superior, there must always be inferior, perhaps hiding somewhere that u cant see, or you don’t even notice that it exists.*then, when I was looking at them, my thoughts start to flow like water tap, cant be stop, that’s what often happens in my head. Those thought coursing through my head, never really pay attention to any in particular but suddenly one thought shocked me that I have to stop myself from the incessant stream of thinking. There was this scary thought that come out of nowhere, the thought is if something fall out of nowhere and hit on the 2 kids, this scene will not be the same as it was at the moment.scary isn’t it? Well, atleast I was super duper shocked by this thought.i was like, hey!where does this thought come from??? Why am I allowing such thought to even come in my mind? Well, many of you would have said that I am a demon, vicious and ugly creature.well, I have to admit that im provided that Ego has taken over me. But am I a devil? No, I am not.it’s just a very inconspicuous thought u know? I was just spacing out and I didn’t even really pay attention to what im thinking. It’s just, a kind of negative mental that im having, so now I’m working slowly to it, to live the present.to not be taken over by the Ego.